Thursday, December 2, 2010

Glass Half Full.

For the most part of 2010 has really been a bitch. A fucking bitch at that. In this year alone....
I had back surgery
Broke up with my boyfriend..... twice
Had to give up a pregnancy
Struggle with money in a very real and major way
Got attacked and sexually assualted
That resulted post traumatic stress and anxiety
Which sent me to therapy.

In therapy.....
I told my therapist that I had really thought 2010 would be my year. I really hoped 2010 would be life changing- in a positive way. She looked a little sad. I told her- well- the year isn't over yet.

In 2010, I certaintly found my strength. Most people don't ever have to deal with the things I have, let alone all of them within 5 months. But in that time, I kept on going. I got my second Masters degree and found an amazing new job.

This job has made my days better. It has made me feel like me again. And I love that. So yes, 2010 has been a real bitch. But she also got me here- now. And I was right- this has been my year. It has been the year that showed me I can live through just about anything, and lived through it coming out stronger than I began. Even through the sheer hell of 2010, I managed to find some success, some achievement, some of me again.

3 comments:

Auntly H said...

I'm thinking no one would choose getting where you are by the route you were presented, but you are already seeing that the bitch of year has changed you in positive ways. Imagine what it might look like after a bit more time has passed.
You are amazing! May 2011 be your year to soar.

Maria Grasso said...

Glad you're living in the silver lining! I've found it is often the darkest experiences that shed the most light and growth in life. If you've never read Elizabeth Lesser's BROKEN OPEN, I highly recommend it. Here's to 2011!

bonalita said...

Auntly H- You are more than kind. Thank you. 2011 it is my friend!

Maria- Thank you for the book recommend- to the store I go! Here's to a light filled new year!