Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Birthday Friday

Another year- hello 33. Looking forward to a wonderful year of you.

 

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

 

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

 

Catching my Breath with a Photo Friday

It has been a very busy week indeed- I will catch up here as soon as I have another busy weekend. I'm focused on enjoying my good fortune lately, the great people I am surrounded with, and the beauty around us all. It has been a good week- thank goodness.

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

First Love Lies.

As I took my photo this week for Photo Friday, I felt a bit hopeful yet hesitant. I found a penny- heads up- lucky. I didn't post it on Friday. I wasn't feeling particularly luck, quite the opposite actually. But here it is.....

Friday was another day of me being sucked back into patterns I would rather leave behind. Leave behind junior high school girls hating me for no particular reason. Obnoxious gossip being ranted with no thought of the impact it could or would have on me. Another day for him to ignore me. Leaving me with the same feelings I had after my first heartbreak. Thinking of the boy, now 14 years later, I wonder how it would have been if he was truthful to me. Faithful. Honest. Mine. How it would have been different if he didn't mindfuck me. If he treated me like a lady. Treated me like love. Treated me as a girl having her first love should be treated. Love me like he said he did. Or just have left me alone. Looking back now- this set me up for the let down.

This perhaps is the beginning of my set up for failure. This, my first love's infidelity. Mind games.  Lack of telephone calls. His overflow of letters from me. My excessive phone bills. His love making with someone else in the backseat. My school girl ignorance, miles away wearing his necklace. Proclaiming my love while he secretly set me up for heartbreak, lies, and loss. 

The feelings echo now still to this day. Feeling lucky to have you- while being secretly betrayed somewhere in the darkness. Reaching out with a kind heart, only to be pistol whipped and ignored. All over again. 

Your lack of responsibility- for me- and of me- matches his. I can see that now. Now that I am older, a bit removed from the situation. A bit removed from myself. You both are so similar in your relationship with me. Lots of front end attention, followed with no follow at all. No follow through. Nothing. A big nothing. Just me, whip lashed. Wondering what the fuck. 

So I found a penny heads up this weekend. I hope it brings me some luck. Some strength. Some protections. Some change. Sometime soon.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

 

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

This is turning into a Photo Friday Blog... Promise this will change! It's just been so busy in a very great way that I haven't been writing- I promise I shall write soon!!

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Friday.

I have not been keeping up with this blog- that is you see because I have been keeping up with life. Which has left me little time to record it. Entry soon to come! The cliff notes... doing life Mondo Beyondo style..... MONDO. The above were taken in the last 3 days across the country from one another. Two from my old home garden in Brooklyn. Two from my new home garden in California. I like the beauty of each, how they are different, yet oh so very much the same. Maybe the sameness is me. I don't know, not sure, but I like it.

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.

Photo Fridays.

So, I didn't take either photo, but I did make the collage. I 'aged' the photo on the left taken from Occupy Wall Street this week. The photo on the right is from 1960's social revolution. 

“Those who do not learn from history are doomed to repeat it” (Santayana).

A Friday ritual borrowed from i believe in santa clause. A single photo capturing a moment of the week. Feel free to make your own Friday moments or leave a comment here with a link to yours.