The Last Post of 2010. Yippie!!!

Reverb asked us to consider our core story. That seems like a nice way to end out 2010. It would be STRENGTH. I have been beaten down this year- literally, figuratively, and emotionally. And I am still here. I won't even say I am dented- I'm certainly stronger. I really can't believe I have done what I have done this year. Looking back at 365 days ago, I would have never thought this would be me now. But I am proud that it is.

So alright core story- There is certainly a theme of strength. The B story from my core is that I have learned to ask others for help, and to let others know when I am not feeling strong. To all of you that have been there- I love you. Thank you.

I am excited this year has come to an end as it has and am hopeful for 2011. I know not everyday will be roses, but I plan to plant as many as I can. I plan to make this year- not let it make me. I plan to smile more, cry less, and remember my strength each and every day.  I plan to see the humor in the moment, be thankful for the present, and continue to strengthen my core.

Christmas Reverb

Our Prompt today...Photo – a present to yourself. Sift through all the photos of you from the past year. Choose one that best captures you; either who you are, or who you strive to be. Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words. Share the image, who shot it, where, and [...]

This turned out to be easier than I had originally thought. What was a wonderful moment caught on film this year? This was taken in August with my best friend Nikki. I had not taken a vacation in years- like 5 or 6 years. I went to visit her with a mission to 1. have fun with my friend 2. go on a boat 3. drink a frozen something on that boat 4. have chips and guacamole. This a a picture of me really happy with my best friend doing just what I wanted to do at that moment.

This picture captures the first three wishes on my list coming true- we had #4 for dinner that night. I love my Nikki.

Reverb

I have heard a lot about Reverb and always wanted to give it a try. Well, better late than never. And what a lovely way to begin. 

Our daily prompt: Everything’s OK What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead? 

Good question. Well, anyone who reads this knows how tough my year has been. And tough is taking it lightly. It's easier to point out my darkest moments than my best. But, what this year has shown me was that I can take on some major things. Heavy things. Things I never thought I could lift I have lifted. I walked away stronger- tired- but stronger. 

I've had a few best moments- these moments were just the times that I realized that I was happy. That I could still feel happy. Those moments were me feeling myself being a good person to someone else. That I could still want to be there for others, to make their days brighter. Those moments were of me accomplishing things that I had wished for. Like getting the  job I really wanted, loving the job once I had it, walking my dog alone again at night, letting my mom hug me again.

How did I know in those moments that everything would be alright? In all honesty, I didn't. I had no idea, no faith, nothing to go on that things would be okay. I just had myself. Putting one foot in front of the other. That small internal warrior, demanding I get up everyday and fight- that made me feel that maybe I could be okay. 

How will I incorporate this into the next year of my life? It has all made me grateful. I don't believe that all things happen for a reason- but I do believe that I can take something from all of this. I appreciate more- appreciate my morning commute to work, appreciate my home, my friends, appreciate me. I will incorporate this terribly dark year by seeing the light in what I have. My discovery of things being okay is a daily one, this year I plan to discover some good things in life. Good discoveries- everyday. That would be okay.