Dial Tones. Busy Signals. And Breakups.

Tell it to me now

before i lose my nerve.

Tell me you won't come back

come back for a time

come back for a moment

come back for me.

 

Tell me it’s over.

you’re screwing someone new

Someone better

Someone brighter

someone with a tighter ass and higher heels

someone with Her head held high laughing at me below.

 

Tell it to me now

before my phone card runs out

tell me i’m nothing

you’re everything

and she’s perfect.

 

Tell it to me now.

tell me i’ll be alone forever

tell me you don’t want me

tell me my feet are dirtier than my mind

tell me my nightgown is too old

and my heart too far gone

tell me you’re better

tell me i’m worse off than you had thought

tell me to keep living in my head because the world won’t have me.

 

Tell it to me now

to stay out west

to never wander south

tell me to go to my room without dessert.

 

Tell me i wasn’t good

good in the sac

good in the afternoon

good with the sun in my hair.

 

Tell me it’s over

tell me over and over again

and get angry when I just don’t get it.

 

Tell me everyone can see the pain in my chest

tell me i make small children cry

tell me i’m not fooling anyone

least of all you.

 

Tell me i’ll always be like this

always alone

always lonely

always a bit crazy

always broken

always battered

always tainted

always damaged goods

always awkward

always unwelcome

always a bit off center

always banished

always famished

always.

 

Tell it to me now

say it quick before the moment ends.

 

Tell me I smell

smell like sweat

smell like tears

smell like rotting childhood

and sour daydreams.

 

Tell it to me now

deliver my truth

my sentence

tell it to me now

before i cry again.

 

Tell me i’m incapable

unable

inescapable

unavailable

inconceivable

unlovable

immobile.

 

Tell it to me now

break my silence

my heart

my last nerve.

 

Tell it to me now

tell me now

tell me.